Ah November, the windy days, fall colors, crisp air. For me it is a great time to dedicate a deep focus on looking at my life and filling up with gratitude.
I spent many years holding on to always thinking there should be more or that I wasn't good enough or you should have loved me more and treated me better. 'This left me with emptiness, self centeredness and resentment. I built many walls to protect my imagined fears and kept you at bay. Then as life has a way of giving us situations that force us to grow, I was struck with utter loss. I won't go into the details but enough to get me to a surrendering place.
I became open and then willing to look at myself and then take action to heal me. The path is long and still ongoing today. As a result of this turn on my path, I was able to choose forgiveness for myself and then for others. From there my life started to take on a new shape and color. Kindness and compassion was filling the space that once had been filled with fear.
Each day I try to start in a quiet space of reflection and offer up thanks and gratitude for all the good things going on in my life. As I do this, I realize that gratitude is filling the other space of "not having or being enough" and healing me into knowing that I am enough!
I often close practice with a moment of gratitude and share that it's like the healing ointment for our hearts.